Friday, December 12, 2008
*edit: i also want to tell you that whatever you told me hurts like shit or rather hurts like fuck. i need a lot of time to start seeing you as a friend. i waited for after your exams. i waited and waited and this is what i got. you painted a picture so beautiful but the picture didn't include me. i'm just a loser.
i don't know what to think of this but i'll be strong. thanks to the few of you who have been there for me you know who you are:) i really appreciate it.
time to find msyelf and live for myself. there's nothing left for me to hold on. i tried my best. but best wasn't enough.
12 plus am:
it would be easier to say i hate you because you make me cry every night before i sleep. i don't even know what you want, what you're thinking and i never will know. i'm waiting and waiting everyday and i don't even get a reply. wtf is this. i told you on sat and then until now i'm still left alone. left alone to face the sadness, left alone to just cry. i can't believe you even leave me alone when i need you the most. this is what you do best: leave me alone when i need you. i think i'm some joke. what the hell did i even do to deserve this? why the hell am i always left alone when i'm down. this is so dysfuntional. but what the hell can i even do? nothing! i want to help myself but i can't even do that. you're just so cruel and selfish. maybe it's time i face it. time to face that maybe you're not the one for me.
love you like a sister;
9:58 pm
